Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Holy Smokes!

Long time no post!

So much has been happening since my last post I can't believe I haven't written about it yet! For starters, I met a new guy. His name is Mark and he is awesome. In a few short months he has become my best friend and my boyfriend all rolled into one. It's great. He recently got a good job in Halifax so he will be moving in a few weeks. And I will be going with him. That's right! I will no longer be Wanda from Halifax in name alone! How exciting is that?

Granted, it's equal parts excitement and horror, but that's all good. Change scares the hell out of me, but it's worth it. The only thing in this town for me (aside from my darling April) is Mark, and without him here, well, I just wouldn't want to be here at all. Now don't get me wrong - I love April and look forward to seeing her every chance I get, but she has a family of her own and I don't know - maybe it's time I get one of my own.

But even still, I can't help but wonder if I'm ready for this. If he's ready for this. I am giving up so much to be with him, but at the same time, giving up nothing. I'm giving up the job. The nothing aquaintences... the nothing life for a completely unknown future.

I don't have a job there yet. What if I can't find one? I thought about going back to school but I don't even know what I'd take. The only thing I know for sure is Mark worked in the Valley today so after driving all the way there and all the way back, he was too tired to come see me and since he doesn't have a phone, he couldn't even call me. I missed him like crazy. What would I do if I had to go a full week, sometimes two or three at a time, without seeing him?

That is way scarier than not being able to find a job and ending up struggling for a while. Maybe it's worth it.